God's Sadisitic Love

What kind of God is your God? My God is a God of Love but He loves sadistically because the more He loves the more he rebukes you.

The more you pray, try your best to be holy and do good, the more He sends you trials up to the extent of giving up to your faith. But the moment you give up, it is the time He will rescue you (Footprints in the Sand. It is unfair! Is He playing with me, with my life? What is this, "Spiritual Sadism/Masochism?"

That's why sometimes it is better not to pray anymore and not to hope anymore because it is less hurting when you experience frustrations in life inspite of all your good deeds and sacrifices just to be good. No wonder why people either end up in the cemetery (suicide) or mental hospital (insanity). Some became zombies, living dead, no sense of meaning in life, mechanical robotic routinary life!

Why is it that those who are bad are the ones becoming rich and successful?
It is unfair! Life is unfair! Life comes from God! God is unfair!!!